Throughout the years I`ve realised a lot about myself. No matter how much people hurt me, I just can`t hate them. I can`t truly hate anyone. No matter what. They can hurt me and take someone close to me away from me and what not. I could scream at them and tell them that I hate them so, so much but it won`t help. I won`t ever have hate for anyone or anything, and I`ve never really had. I just hate what some people did and still are doing.
And that`s what I love about myself! No matter what – it doesn`t take much for me to be nice and kind to whoever! If I hear that someone needs help, I rush to them and help them even though they`ve never asked for anything. I rush to people with a high speed, and I`m there for anyone. Age doesn`t matter. I help new-born babies, to oldies who`re like seventy years old. I`m just like that.
I can be sad, I can tell myself to be rude and mean to everyone I see the next day but deep inside me I know that`ll never happen. When I`m furious, I remain that way for only some few seconds. Or maybe I`m never really angry? I guess I just act really angry. But I`m never truly cold or harsh to anyone. Even if I say something bad to someone, I regret it and just want to go and say sorry as fast as I can! I worry a lot, I have to admit that but my nice attitude and behaviour covers it all too well.
I help anyone and everyone, and I give a lot of myself to other people while I never really get anything good myself. I talk a lot with people I meet, and I really miss how they don`t really back talk to me. That`s why I`m going to stop talking to someone who doesn`t put much effort to keep in contact with me. Many people have hurted me and what not, they`ve made me cry but I still have never hated them. I`m too busy loving people, and it`s not my fault that they threw away a real diamond for a fake one.
I`ve always been the different one in my class and anywhere else. I don`t drink, I don`t smoke, I wear clothes who cover the whole body and I don`t party. Believe it or not, but it`s actually a big deal today. I don`t hang out a lot, I prefer being home and write stories instead. I`m not anti-social, I`m just not hanging out with the wrong people. I want to be with people who actually mean something to me. I`m not like very many other people who go out just because they want to go outside and have “fun”.
I`ve been bullied, I`ve been treated unfairly by people I`ve met everywhere. I`ve been scared about the future, but I`m not anymore. I know God has a bigger plan for me than I have for myself, and a lot can happen in twelve months. I have to achieve my dreams, and just be the kind girl I`ve always been. People can hate on me and whatever, but I will always be who I am. I will always stay this same, because I know that some people actually do really appreciate it. Even if they don`t tell me.