I need to let out some frustration and writing is pretty much the only way I can do that.
Not that this directly bothers me, but what`s upsetting is people for the 293847th time thinking everything`s black and white. Like you guys know, I`m not russ this year, which means I`m not going to be a part of a lot of events, parties and meetings around the whole country. 2-3 people keep inviting me, even though I`ve decided to not be a russ, like really? Anyways, that`s not a big deal. Just yesterday I posted a status on my Facebook saying I don`t want to be a part of those events and “God knows what” because after all, I`ve got better things to do, haha. That`s my typical line these days. I`ve simply got better things to do. Or maybe that`s complicated to understand. But it`s true. I don`t believe you have to be a russ to celebrate the end of high school and mark 13 years with school. Those millions spent on some stupid buses are a waste of time. But, I can`t stop anyone, can I? Little do I know.
So this girl commented and some liked it (even my old teacher JK, to my surprise) which got me thinking. The comment said she only wants to include me and of course that`s nice. It`s the thought that matters, but then I wonder. . where was I when you didn`t speak to me all day at school today? Why do you ignore me? Of course something is better than nothing, but those are such paradoxes that I don`t know where to even go anymore. I think it all starts at school and parties don`t even matter to me. As long as you treat me nicely AT SCHOOL, I`m perfectly fine! People can talk to me pretty much every day at school and include me there. And I wonder – what was the excuse last year? And the year before that?Not everything`s black and white and I`m sure people who liked and said shit didn`t keep this in mind. Well well, why should I let them ruin my day. Just think about it, guys. Don`t make everything so complicated – caring is easy. 🙂