So, I received an e-mail today and it turns out that I`ve been accepted into…
…the University of Maastricht, which is in the Netherlands. A year ago it was a dream to pretty much only visit Amsterdam and the Anne Frank Museum. Now I have the opportunity to live in another city for a couple months. That`s weird to think about, to be honest. Life definetely happens and who thought I`d be here today. Well well, looks like I got into The Netherlands (Maastricht), which I`m happy about. I need some time to let this sink in, even though it`s now that the real stuff begins.
But AAAAH, GUYS!! All hope really wasn`t lost and I actually got in. Very happy about that. 💖 This is going to be craaaaazy!
I`m going to try and explain this as good as I can: so, I could apply for 3 exchange agreements on each faculty and 3 UiO (University in Oslo) agreements. On my list I had 12 agreements (basically most schools don`t have school fees, but some also have that so I had to write down some agreements twice). 5 of these agreements were UiO-agreements and apparentely, I`m not qualified for any of the universities I applied in India. I`m a little disappointed about that, to be honest, because after all I put India on the top. BUT it turns out that the mail I received yesterday, was talking about the UiO-agreements!! I didn`t know whether to laugh or cry when the woman in the office told me that, I got SO relieved. She also said that it looks like I`ve gotten an admission in the Netherlands, but I still don`t really know as I`ll get to know that tomorrow and on Friday (like I told you before).
AHHH, guys! I`m so happy. I wish I could go to India, but I`m happy as long as I get to go anywhere. Also, I`m still considering complaining, because it turns out that one of the agreements I applied for didn`t have any expectations when it comes to the grades and when I mentioned that to a woman today through e-mail she said “sorry, that information isn`t updated”. But isn`t that kind of stupid, considering that those of us who have applied, applied according to the information we found on the website? I mean, this is the university`s fault. Well well, we`ll see what happens about that. 🙂
I`m excited about tomorrow and Friday, because I`ll get to know where I`ve got in. I`m a little worried, because it turns out I applied for Maastricht first and not Amsterdam… God knows what I was thinking, but like someone of you said: God works it all out. ♥
So, I`ve been waiting and waiting to get a reply from the university and the exchange studies. I wasn`t expecting to get any feedback before Thursday, but… I checked my mail a while ago and it turns out they`ve said no.
It goes without saying that I`m disappointed, sad and yeah.. God, I was so excited about this and was almost sure I`d get in somewhere. The reason I didn`t get in is pretty much that my grades aren`t good enough and I guess I can only scold myself for that, but but. What`s done, is done and I can only look forward.
I`m still not going to give up – I`m going to complain and I`m off to the office tomorrow to get my answers. I want to thank everyone who`s been so supportive, please keep me in your thoughts/prayers, because I really really really want this. ♥
Yesterday turned out to be a nice day – Thea came over and my family spent some time with her. She was going to be her for a little while, but suddenly she spent almost two hours here. I haven`t seen Thea since Sara went to Australia, so it was nice to see her. ❤️ We`re trying to make some plans, so we can go to the cinema (finalllyyyy). Hopefully next time we see each other will be soon.
Here in Norway it`s time for the winter holidays, which those of us who are in universiy/university college aren`t enjoying. But, let`s say I`m on my winter holidays as I don`t have any other classes rest of the week. 😉 I still have to study, but in my opinion it`s better to do that at home or at a library not far from where you live. Plus, it`s hard to focus when I think of the fact that I`ll get to know where (maybe I should say if, but I`m pretty sure I`ll get admission somewhere) I`m going to study abroad. Aaah, can`t wait!!! Speaking of that – I got a little too confused yesterday, as I started thinking I had put the wrong university at the top of my list. I sent an e-mail to the university and thankfully they fixed it!
I came home a while ago and now it`s soon time for dinner. Talk to ya later!
“if I turn my back on you
you might can see everything I`m carrying”
//photo from here & poem from @en__dose
you`re still a little kid and maybe you already think you`re mature, way more mature than kids your age. that is true, but there`s still so much you have to learn, understand and see for yourself. there`s so much that you still need to know.
this letter isn`t going to be another “this-is-what-you-have-to-be-aware-of”, because I trust you know to know that you`ll know when the time`s right. everything will happen when it`s meant to happen. what I want to tell you, is that a lot is going to happen to you, but don`t you dare give up. you`ll hurt. a lot. it`ll feel like your blood has run dry, but don`t you ever stop fighting for yourself. you`ll realise that love isn`t the same for everyone. you`ll learn that not everyone has the same heart but don`t stop believing in the good in people, because what would be the point to do great things in the world then? you`ll learn that not everyone will appreciate the things you do or notice the things you do for them, but that doesn`t necessarily mean there`s something wrong with you. keep standing up for yourself and other people that are treated in a way that`s not acceptable. keep raising your voice, stay engaged and know that someone out there is being inspired by you. there will be people in your life who will tell you to be a little more quiet, to not take so much space but let them know you deserve to do what you want to do and let them especially know who you really are. it might feel like being kind and sensible isn`t the right thing to do, but consider them your strengths because these are the two characteristics that will get you far in life. and remember to use them especially when you understand how life can be, when you understand more of what`s going in your life and how unfair humans can be. it`ll raise you up and make it easier for you to carry the heavy baggage.
people will come and go, but do always stay kind and lovely and I know you`re not really worried about it now, but I still want you to know that one day you`ll meet someone who`ll truly appreciate you and everything you have in that beautiful heart of yours. and please; you`re carrying so much love in your heart, do not forget to give some to yourself.