So… it`s time for me to share my thoughts and opinions on a book I mentioned on here a little while ago. On my way home from Frankfurt I saw the girl who was sitting next to me, reading a book called “a diary of an oxygen thief” and I remembered how I had heard of it before. When I came back, I ordered it at the library. It`s taken me a while to finish it, mainly because I`ve had to put it down and read something else.
Before I tell you what I think of the book, I want to say that we all understand things differently. So if you`ve read this book, your interpretation might be different from mine and that`s okay. Before I started reading it, I read very many negative reviews of it online and it made me even more qurious. One example is this:
” It’s an unapologetic and even romanticized account of a manipulative and narcissistic garbage dump of a person who hurts people without remorse and paints himself as a victim (which, by the way, is bullshit). This is not a story of a damaged soul who needs to find love. This is the story of a damaged person that chooses to hurt people in retaliation for being damaged, and wants you to feel sorry for him. Do not give this book to your sons or daughters. Or your friends. Or literally anyone.”
Now that I`ve actually read the book, I wonder what makes people say that? Yeah, he acts like an idiot and hurts many people without realising how it might affect them. When it comes to that, I`m not at the same page as the main person (which is an anonymous man) when it comes to that. However, he describes how good it made him feel to cause others pain. He writes “all I know is, I felt better when I saw someone else in pain.” This sentence might not make sense alone, but to me it already explained that something must have happened for him to think and feel that way. And perhaps I wasn`t wrong, because he writes somewhere else in the book that “I see now that I was in pain and wanted others to feel it, too. This was my way of communicating.” I`m not sure I understand the purpose of the book, but according to the writer he doesn`t want sympathy. I don`t feel like judging him, because let`s face it: this is something many humans do.
Later on in the book he tells how he met a woman who pretty much did what he used to do to girls before, to him. I`m not 100 % sure, but I`d like to believe that was a wake-up call for him. He realised what it`s like to care about someone who doesn`t care about you. He realised what the pain he used to place others in, was like. He tells his story in a humoristic and honest way. I`m not sure what exactly I read and maybe I need time to digest it, but it`s not like I wouldn`t recommend this book. It turns out that there`s a second book written by the same author, which goes on with the story. Perhaps reading that one will make the first book make more sense.
There are consequences for all of our actions and this story portrays that with honesty. Hurt people hurt people. It might not make sense, but then again; there`s so much in the world which doesn`t always make sense. I can relate to how pain can cause more pain. Some people feel like hurting other people when they`re hurt. Maybe because it makes them feel better to be in control, maybe because it`s their way of protecting themselves and their souls, or maybe it makes them feel good to “take revenge” by making other people suffer too. Complicated, I know. Maybe that`s why I sort of liked the book, but I`d like to read the second book to find out more about what happens.
Have you read the book? If so, let me know what you think of it below! And if you haven`t read it: like I said, I`d recommend it. It contains quite a lot of swearing and it might not make sense to everyone, but I believe everyone can get something out of this book.