Today`s Valentines Day or, if you`re like me – just another Tuesday.
I understand that today`s a little more special. It`s supposed to be all about love, but so many places I`ve read things like “like this if you`re single too on Valentines Day” and “today sucks because I`m single”. WHEN did Valentines Day become a day for only those of us who are in a relationship? I mean, you don`t have to be in a relationship to celebrate love.
I wish especially women stopped believing that they need a man next to them in order to feel good. It`s great to have a person who`s always there for you, who makes you smile and happy and who sends you cute messages every morning. But, what matters the most is that YOU love YOURSELF. Someone might love you, but you`ll never be 100 % happy until you`re happy with yourself, until you accept your flaws and mistakes and love yourself. Boys and girls might come and go, but you`ll always have yourself at the end of the day. Who cares if you`re not in a relationship today? Things will happen at the right time and until then, we should treat ourselves right. We should love ourselves. Celebrating love is awesome and frankly, we should do that every day. But, considering that it`s Valentines Day today – if you don`t have anyone to celebrate it with, then celebrate it with yourself.
So today? Today I`m thinking about all the things I`ve done that I`m proud of, I`m thinking of the journey I`ve had so far and how I`m so proud of who I`ve become. I`m thinking about how I would`nt have been where I am today if I hadn`t loved myself when I needed love the most. Today I`m loving myself.
Why, you might ask.
Well, it`s simple. One day I might not have anyone by my side, but the one thing I know for sure is that I`ll always have myself at the end of the day.
My birthday was great. My brother made me a carrot cake and we ordered some pizza, which we enjoyed while watching the first Harry Potter movie. I must say I love Harry Potter, and it was amazing to re-create memories from our childhood.
But, today was great too. Perhaps even better? I spent several hours with Thea and Sara. We went to this park, where we talked, had some great food, they gave me two books (they`re A-M-A-Z-I-NG!!) and this card that I`ll keep with me forever. Really, it was so sweet and I was close to crying when I read it. Sentimental me, you know. I`m going to keep that card with me till the day I die. And even after that too. We also played “Cards Against Humanity”, which was very fun. Ah, it was a very good day. Thank you so much, sweeties. Also, I love daylight, but isn`t there something charming with the cities at night? We walked around in the park in the darkness and it was just beautiful. I need to do more of that.
Thanks to everyone whom made my birthday great. My family (especially my brother), Sara, Thea, everyone else – thank you so much. Thanks for making the first two days of 19 great. Oh, God. I`m 19. When did that happen?
Yesterday I went out with my aunt and cousin. We went to Frankfurt to do a lot of shopping. In the end we went to this huge shopping mall, where we didn`t buy much. I also went to shops like Primark, Zara and H&M. On our way home my aunt told me there`s been an attack in Munich. She didn`t know much more than that, so when we got home we read the news. There had been a massacre in a shopping mall. An 18-year-old German-Iranian boy killed 9 people along with himself. I`ve seen the video that has went viral, which shows people running around like crazy while he`s trying to shoot them. I`m speechless and I can`t believe someone would ever do something like that. Not to mention ever think of something like that.
I was in a shopping mall too yesterday. I went out with my family to have fun too. It could`ve been me. Guys, you have no idea how thankful I am for still being alive. It`s also insane how this boy was 18 – I`m 18 too. According to him, he was bullied for several years. I don`t agree with his actions, but I feel sorry for him. I`ve been there too as I`ve been bullied half of my life, but I`ve never thought of killing several people. I would never kill someone “just because” I feel lonely.
I don`t know where I even want to get with this. Just wanted to let out some thoughts I`ve had the past hours. I wonder when this is going to end. We hear about an attack pretty much every day now and it`s scary how it seems to happen everywhere. This time it happened at Munich shopping mall. I was at a shopping mall too. Happily I was far away from Munich. 9 people weren`t. They were at the wrong place at the wrong time.
But it could`ve been me. Or you.
Yesterday evening someone sent me a link, which talked about a new attack in Nice. I remember reading it and not thinking too much about it, until I realised some minutes later the reality.
There`s been a new attack in France. This time it was Nice`s turn.
I`m devastated and shocked. To me it doesn`t matter much who it was – Muslim or Christian, this isn`t okay at all. My prayers and thoughts go out to everyone affected. I watched that awful video which shows the dead bodies in the street and all the blood. I understand that a person shouldn`t post a video like that online, plus who the hell even thinks of documenting something like that when there are people dying around him? With that being said, I think videoes like these make more understand the consequences of terrorism and how brutal it actually is.
I don`t know what else to say right now. I`ll most likely share more of my thoughts and opinions later today. Right now I`m only thinking about the more than 80 people whom died the 14th of July 2016. People were celebrating liberty, equality and fraternity. It ended with terror, mourning and pain.
Ramadan`s over – so is Eid. I know I`m a little late for this, but Eid Mubarik to all Muslims out there. I hope everyone had an amazing celebration with friends and family. 🙂
Over to something else – As you perhaps can tell, I`ve decided to not quit blogging. I love blogging, plus some of you have told me to keep it going. I love receiving nice comments and I love it when people read my blog. Also, I enjoy writing. Some times there have been several days between my posts, but this summer I`m trying to post more often. If there`s anything you want me to write about, let me know! It could be anything. 🙂 By the way, I`ve changed a little of my design for a while! What do you guys think about it? Yey or ney?
These six months have been a little hard. Some days are tougher and harder of course, but it feels like a lot has happened in the last 6 months. Lately I`ve been feeling sort of lonely, but I want to use this great opportunity to thank everyone who`s been there for me. Thanks for supporting me, thanks a lot for all the love and encouragement. It feels crazy. I mean, some time ago I never thought people would appreciate me as much as some do today. It amuses me, so THANK YOU for everything, guys. I`m thankful for the nice comments, for the random kind messages. You guys have no idea how happy random messages and comments make me – many of them have literally made my day several times!
It touches my heart when people tell me I`m going to get far in life or that I inspire them. That`s some of the best things I can ever be told and I want to thank people for their kindness. ♥
I hope everyone`s having a great week. Summer`s right around the corner!
I`m a person that doesn`t want to act like my life`s perfect. If I`m having a bad day, I`m having a bad day. But, just because I`m having a bad day, doesn`t mean life sucks.
Friday was one of those bad days. School sucked. I was alone the whole day, nobody bothered sitting down with me or joining me to the bus station. It made me very sad and I couldn`t help but think “When will I be home?”
Yesterday made up for pretty much everything. I had an awesome day with Sara and Thea. I spent several hours with them, we played games, ate, talked, went for a walk, enjoyed the great weather and each others` company. It was a perfect day. That much that it`s making me sentimental to write all this down.
It makes me sentimental when people talk about my graduation or how many days I`ve got left. Sometimes I`m happy, other times I`m.. no. It makes me want to sit down and cry my heart out, because I`m that horribly sentimental girl. It`s almost irritating, but it is what it is. I`ll miss Sara and Thea next year, especially in the beginning. It`ll be very odd to not have them around me. I just hope they know I`m happy to have them in my life and that their caring behaviour means so much to me.
Anyways, thank you so much for making my day. I shall stop here before I make someone else emotional too here, haha. ♥