MY ALL-TIME FAVOURITE CITY? HOW MUCH DO I TRUST PEOPLE?

All these questions are taken from here. (link). 

Are you more likely to avoid conflict or engage it head-on? It depends, but if someone`s being treated in an unfair way, I can`t help but feel it so much. Unjustice is not something I can just watch happen right in front of me. I think it`s important to not create unnecessary conflicts in life, but I also think it`s important to be able to engage in a conflict when it`s needed.

Do you have a whole lot of acquaintances or just a few very close friends? Why? I have a few close friends. Sometimes I catch myself wishing I had more friends, but then I realise that I just got so many new friends in Maastricht. I miss them. Weird how we`re all back home now and doing our own thing. Why I have a few close friends? That`s kind of what it has been like the past few years. I guess you could say it`s because of things that have happened in the past? I don`t know, it just feels that way. At the same time I think it`s better to have friends whom you actually really know, instead of having a lot whom you don`t know where are at.

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What’s your all-time favourite town or city? Why?

AMSTERDAM!! I was there four times during my exchange semester and I can`t wait to go back soon. Next time I want to have more days in the beautiful city. The streets, the canals, the roads, the atmosphere. I wanted to visit Amsterdam so badly for years and I finally got to summer 2017. I was super excited and it`s odd to think that I`ve spent some time there five times by now. I waited so long and within two years I`ve already been there so many times. I`m glad that Amsterdam isn`t that far away. Ah, a big reason why I want to work so badly this summer is that I want to get away from here again and just the idea of travelling makes me so happy. My exchange semester definitely made me more addicted to travelling.

How difficult is it for you to forgive someone who refuses to apologize?

It`s not difficult. I don`t know if this is going to make sense, but I don`t feel like I “have” to forgive someone because I`ve “already” done it. I don`t get so mad or angry at someone that it gets to that point, but I feel very disappointed, frustrated, sad and let down. It is even more frustrating when the person in front of you doesn`t ackownledge that they might have hurted me or doesn`t even want to listen. On the other hand: an apologize isn`t always enough, for me actions speak louder than words.

To what extent do you trust people?

At the end of the day: quite little. It`s not that I`m not nice to people or that I never believe what they say, but at the end of the day I get quite sceptical to people and wonder what their true intentions are and if they realise how much harm little things also can do. I keep believing in the good in people, but trusting has become too difficult.

 What do you think about more than anything else?

Right now? My future. I wonder what it will be like, what my career will look like, who I will be friends with  and what my situation in general will be like. Sometimes it worries me, sometimes it excites me.

WOULD I LEAVE MY HOMETOWN FOREVER? WHAT DO I MISS ABOUT BEING A KID?

Would you leave your hometown forever or stay in your hometown forever?

Oh, a hard one. I wouldn`t mind living in Oslo forever, but if I had to pick I think I would`ve decided to leave my hometown forever and stay in Amsterdam. My favourite city as of now!

What are you most looking forward  to in the next 10 years?

I could pick several things, but all in all I`m looking forward to seeing what road I`ll be walking down the next 10 years. I know that the next years are going to consist of so many decisions and paths and while I`m excited, I`m also worried because you don`t know what`s going to happen to you.

What are you most likely to become famous for?

For speaking up. Perhaps that doesn`t make much sense, but I believe that I am going to use my voice to talk about something that matters to me and I hope that people will listen one day.

Do you ever want to just walk away from technology?

Oh, yes. Maaaaany times. One reason why I`ve spent less time online. I also find myself getting annoyed by people online, so I just choose to turn on airplane mode on my phone and forget that that world also exists for some time. Totally recommend doing that once in a while.

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What is something that most people learn only after it’s too late?

Where to begin. Perhaps that there`s always someone out there that cares about them. Or that everything happens for a reason.

What do you miss the most about being a kid?

This is something I`ve taught more and more about recently. I`m trying to make the most out of where I am in life right now, but I miss being a kid because life was so much more stress-free back then. I used to get bullied and being a kid I did have rough time and perhaps I`m saying this now because I`m in the future, but apart from what I was experiencing in school my childhood was worry-free and that`s why I`m all about children who are chill now. I visited my cousins the other day and after being scolded he was all chill and I literally gave him a high-five, because that`s what a childhood should be about. That`s what kids are about; they don`t and shouldn`t have to worry about things that grown-ups worry about. Back then I was “worried” about the trampoline getting wet so I wouldn`t be able to jump on it or I could be “worried” about the rain washing away the drawings I had made on the street in front of my house. Now I worry about what job I`m going to get in five years time or what I`m going to do with my life. It`s not like I stress about it, but these and so many more are thoughts in my mind that I for sure didn`t have fifteen years ago. Weird how so many want to get older to be able to do certain things, but they somehow end up missing the childhood.Processed with VSCO with f2 preset

What is the silliest thing you have heard people say about you?

Not sure if this is the silliest, but; once someone said that my blog is a “pink blog”, in the means of that I write about make-up and “pink” things like that, when I don`t? Haha, let`s just say that the person who said that clearly hasn`t read my posts about death.

WOULD YOU RATHER… – PART 2

Would you rather be able to see 10 minutes into your own future or 10 minutes into the future of anyone but yourself?

As of right now, I have to say 10 minutes into my own future. I`ve become even more curious and excited to see what the future holds for me, and it`d be great to know what`s going to happen and hopefully be more relaxed.

Would you rather be famous when you are alive and forgotten when you die or unknown when you are alive but famous after you die?

This is a hard one, as I would like to be famous when I`m alive, but I think I`ll have to say famous after I die. I don`t want to be forgotten after my death.

Would you rather go to jail for 4 years for something you didn’t do or get away with something horrible you did but always live in fear of being caught?

Another hard one. I don`t want to go to jail, but I don`t want to live in fear, because that`s hard too. Some would say that`s worse, so I think I`d rather go to jail for 4 years than having to always live in fear, but I`d also go to jail for something I didn`t do and being treated in an unfair way really gets me furious, so… I`m not sure.

Would you rather the general public think you are a horrible person but your family be very proud of you or your family think you are a horrible person but the general public be very proud of you?

I`d rather have my family be proud of me, simply because they`re my family. I don`t want to focus on what the public, who don`t even really know me, thinks of me. Also imagine coming home every day, knowing your family thinks you`re a horrible person. That wouldn`t exactly be amazing.

Would you rather be completely invisible for one day or be able to fly for one day?

I feel like that depends on what day we`re talking about, because it would most likely depend on my mood and what`s going on in my life that very day. But for one; be able to fly for one day. Don`t ask me where I`d like to fly.

Would you rather find your true love or a suitcase with five million dollars inside?

Oh, my true love. The end.

Would you rather be able to teleport anywhere or be able to read minds?

I think I`m not the only one who finds it great that nobody can read my mind and aaaaalthough it would be cool to be able to read people`s minds, I have to say that I`d rather be able to teleport anywhere. I would save money, time, energy and I would be able to go anywhere anytime.

Would you rather give up bathing for a month or give up the internet for a month?

Internet for a month. I have to be honest: I don`t think not bathing for a month would be a huge problem, considering we have a lot of hygiene products now, but if I had to give up one of those it`d be to give up the internet for a month.

Would you rather be fluent in all languages and never be able to travel or be able to travel anywhere for a year but never be able to learn a word of a different language? 

Rather travel anywhere for a year. I wouldn`t mind to never be able to learn a word of a different language as much as I would mind to never be able to travel again. Travelling makes me happy. Plus I can speak three languages fluently.

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Would you rather never be able to eat meat or never be able to eat vegetables?

Never be able to eat meat. I haven`t had meat for more than two months now and I don`t miss it. They also have so many vegan and vegetarian options in various shops, cafes and restaurants now that not eating meat has become quite easy now.

Would you rather have to read aloud every word you read or sing everything you say out loud?

Haha, imagine having to sing a speech at a funeral. I think I`d rather read aloud every word I read.

Would you rather never get angry or never be envious?

I don`t really get angry, but I`d rather never be envious. Not that I get envious a lot, but I think I prefer to get angry than envious, haha.

 

 

IT`S AS IF DEAD PEOPLE RECEIVE MORE FLOWERS

“It`s as if a person gets more attention when he`s dead”.

I was about to tweet this the other day, but didn`t because it was perhaps too “dark” and I thought it`s better to keep it to myself. But here I am, sharing.

I`ve been thinking about Avicii and how he`s just… not anymore. It happens quite a lot when someone famous dies and it was worse when my uncle and grandmother died. No one doesn`t really know what kind of thoughts I have, which I`m happy about. Like I said the other day; I`m glad nobody has access to my mind. It`s just… I can`t understand how people just fall asleep forever. People are sad about Avicii`s death, but what`s made it all worse, is how he was so young. Nobody expected this to happen. The guy made the soundtrack of so many people`s lives and him just not being anymore, is a weird thought. My mind doesn`t understand.

People on social media have been sending him more love and thoughts than ever. Isn`t that a little crazy? Crazy and sad. Don`t get me wrong, it`s great that people have a place to share their thoughts and condolences, and remember him, but it`s as if he`s getting more love now than ever because he`s not anymore. Because people realise now what he actually was. Because people are going to miss him now. Why? Where was everyone before all this? I know his fans loved him and appreciated what he did, but you can see the difference.

It`s like Anne Frank wrote: “Dead people receive more flowers than the living ones because regret is stronger than gratitude.” It sounds too honest. It`s something I`ve experienced too. Once someone is near death or is dead, many of us come running and “suddenly” have so many regrets. Some of us show more love than ever and I just wonder where they were before.

Ah, these thoughts are a little too complex and thinking about death is both confusing and scary, because I`m not going to get all of the answers anytime soon. I hope I won`t, but I guess I just wish more people showed this much love, sympathy and understanding every single day and not only when people die.

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WHERE DO I GET IDEAS FROM? WHAT INSPIRES ME?

Some time ago Suze nominated me for Liebster Award. I don`t do awards, but I like many of the questions I`m asked so I thought I`d do it as a “get-to-know-me-better” post. 🙂 Thanks to Suze, by the way. I really appreciate it. Nice to know someone out there finds my blog amazing and worthy of praise.

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Where do you get your ideas?

From life, people and dreams. I`m so glad my mind is not see through.

What is your writing process like?

Haha, so ..I dream. And then I really mean a lot. To me, they`re inspiration. I write a lot for myself which I don`t share with anyone. It depends on what I`m writing, but mostly I prefer to just write. It`s a little harder when I write by hand as I want it to be written neatly. I let my mind drift away and write everything down without any filters. I think that if you keep going back and checking what you write, it`s easy to get stuck. Grasp the things around you with silence and try to make something out of them by words.

Do you think someone could be a writer if they don’t feel emotions strongly?

Of course. Not everybody feels emotions so strongly, but that doesn`t mean they don`t have anything they`d like to share.

What one thing would you give up to become a better writer?

The voice inside my head which isn`t fearless and tells me to stop.

What is your favorite childhood book?

You mean my favourite book of all times? The diary of Anne Frank. Never gets old for me and never will either.

How does your writing relate to your spiritual practice or other life path?

I consider myself a Muslim, but I seperate that from my writing. For me, writing is more about emotions.

What inspires you?

I inspire myself. Apart from that life does. If I was to mention a person that`s inspired me for years and keeps inspiring me, it`s Anne Frank.

Describe yourself as if someone is interviewing you.

I find such questions so hard, even though I`m supposed to talk about myself and that should perhaps be an easy task but I`m always like “where do I even begin?”. And doesn`t it depend on who`s interviewing you? Not sure I would say this if we`re talking about a job interview, but I`ll just write down what I`ve written on my “about me” page:

I`m a passionate girl, with a lot of hopes and dreams. I used to be a thinker, now I`m an over-thinker. I`m a dreamer. I dream a lot, doesn`t matter if it`s day or night. I`m a writer. I`m a daughter. I`m vulnerable. Kind. Strong. Weak. Mature. Immature. Visible. Invisible. Fragile. Beautiful. Mess.

Most of all I`m an old soul in a young body.

Where do you see yourself in ten years?

Oh, God… I don`t know. I hope I`m an author by then and that I`m happy with what my life`s like at that time.

What was the worst book you ever read, or stopped reading?

I don`t really have a “worst book I`ve ever read”. Sure, there have been books that I didn`t like that much but I usually try to finish them because I`d like to believe you can learn something from everything.

SOME QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS

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What are you looking forward to right now?

Finishing this assignment I have for my history class. The deadline is on Monday and I really hope I finish it tomorrow!

The book you`re reading now? 

“I am Malala” – very interesting and inspiring!

The last time you went to a shopping mall?

On Thursday, as I had to buy a waffle iron.

Been to the cinema the past five years?

Yep, was there this Tuesday to watch the movie “Hva vil folk si” (English: What will people say).

Anything you`d like to get to know about the future?

Yes and no. Yes, because I`m curious and a lot of things would be clearer if I knew what I`m expecting, no because at the same time the excitement would be gone.

Bought any clothes the last week?

Maybe I`ll change my mind later, but for now I`ve stopped buying clothes and such from Norway. Why? 1. It`s way too expensive and 2. I prefer going on a holiday and buying clothes there. That way I get to travel and save some money. 3. I have everything I need and it`s not like I need anything right now.

The last time you were happy?

Hmm, not sure if this counts but I felt this happiness inside me a while ago when I looked up apartments for exchange students in Maastricht. Weird and crazy to think about the fact that I`m going to live in the Netherlands for more than three months.


Your turn! Pick one of the questions and answer it in the comment section. 😉

10 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS

Roxy nominated me for the “Liebster Award” while I was in Germany. I normally don`t really do awards (not that I`ve been nominated for many, it`s happened only once before), but I thought I`d do this one sort of like a “get-to-know-me-better-tag”. Thanks to her for nominating me, by the way! I appreciate it. 🙂


Describe one goal you want to achieve by the end of 2018.

I don`t really have any specific goals for this year. Mainly I just want to get wiser and become a better person, by growing up and learning every day. I need to allow myself to do mistakes, because after all I`m a human and that`s how I`m going to learn. I won`t become a better person by only being nice to others, I also need to be nicer towards myself.

Are you pessimistic or optimistic?

At the end of the day, I`m optimistic. Imagine being pessimistic all the time – that must be exhausting.

If there was one country you could choose to go to where would it be and why?

My first thought was The Netherlands. If you`ve been following me for some time, you`d know I have been wanting to visit that country for years. I finally got to visit it last summer, but it was only for two days. However, if I was to choose a country I`ve never been to, I think I would`ve picked India? Or Hungary? I`m not sure, haha, but I thought of these two because I`ve been wanting to visit these countries for some time. They seem very interesting and I feel like I`d learn a lot. IMG_1191

It’s your last ever meal…what would you eat?

Pizza or pasta? Donuts? Croissants?! “Favourite questions” aren`t really my thing, as I don`t have only one thing that I like, as you perhaps can tell, haha. But, I`d simply eat something I like. 🙂

What is the first thing you would buy if you won a million pounds?

Books. And perhaps a house. I`ve got great priorities, you know.

Would you still write if WordPress never existed?

Yeah, of course! I wrote before I started this blog and I still write for myself (which I don`t really share with anyone). 😉

What is your favourite season and why?

Autumn. Not too cold, not too hot. Fresh air. Jumpers. Scarves. The autumn leaves somehow remind me of how everything one day is going to vanish. Weird how some things never change – every autumn the leaves change its colours and bid goodbye to the trees. IMG_1491

What is your favourite sweet?

One of those questions again. I had to look it up, haha. I was about to say croissant, but it`s not really a sweet (even though I like to eat them when I`m craving something “sweet”). So, donut maybe?  Chocolate cake? Candy you can find in the grocery shops? I can`t decide.

If you could have a conversation with a celebrity who would it be?

Emma Watson. I enjoyed her character in the Harry Potter movies. She`s also engaged when it comes to women rights and she`s not afraid to stand up for what she believes in.

What was the most recent programme you watched?

“Baaghi”!!!! I just watched the third episode (I`m watching the first ones, while waiting for a new one, to get to know the story) and it is so amazing. The character, the dialogues, the story. AND let`s not forget the title track. Ah, if anyone of you is watching the drama serial, let me know! (It`s in Urdu)

What sets you apart from everyone else?

Hmm, I`m not sure, but perhaps my kindness. I feel like I`m “too kind” sometimes. Or my reflections. I reflect a lot on everything and nothing.